Hell Week!!

This week is my first hell week of the semester. I have two projects due this week and they really suck. My woods project is my main focus. I am actually extremely proud of it. I hope that my brother and sister-in-law will like it when its finished. Obviously I can't stand textiles so that project I don't really care about. It is kind of a cool looking piece, but I am not putting in the effort that I should be.

My week didn't start well. On Friday I got into a rough spot with my boyfriend. A lot was said and I didn't understand what was going on. I really couldn't figure out how he could just come out and say that he didn't love me and that he didn't want a long time relationship with me. But looking back on the relationship there were so many signs that he truly cared for me and wanted to be with me. I finally broke down enough and broke up with him that night. We kinda talked over the weekend, but then on Sunday he came over to get his stuff. It was extremely awkward because we didn't know how to act around each other. Much to my surprise, later that day he texted me telling me that he missed me. We talked a bit about what had happened and how we felt. I told him when I got home he could come over and we could talk if he wanted. So thats what we did! We talked about everything. He has a lot of insecurities due to a past relationship, which I do understand. I asked how he felt about me, and all he could tell me was that over the weekend he couldnt stop thinking about me and that Sunday after he left he was almost in tears and went home and either slept or starred at the wall because he didn't know what else to do. He got really emotional trying to figure out how to explain stuff to me, but couldn't seem to get it right. He wanted to get back together, but my deal was that he had to get to know me, figure out his feelings and find some way to show/prove to me what they were and that they were real. I thought it would take a while, but again to my surprise he came up with the perfect way.

One thing that got me hooked to him in the first place was that he would send me lyrics from country songs. They were usually out of the blue, but always at the perfect time. He used that to express how he felt. he only used parts of the song and then through in some different words. It was so sweet and explained how he felt about me. I wanted to cry! I have reread it like a hundred times already and proud to say that I am dating him again! I like this kid a lot and I really hope that he knows it!!! :-)

Hopefully this week will get better. I see my parents on Friday when my brother and sister-in-law go to the courthouse to get married. That will be exciting!! I guess my week is just busy busy busy, but the fact that I have a great guy to share it with will make it all the more worth it!